She didn?t know what to do. It was early in the morning and her eyes were still swollen with the tears she had wept last night. What a night it had been. She had vowed to herself that no matter what, she would not let go of him, but how could she stay on? How could she stay on a relationship that had made her weep everyday of the year? One year!! It had been a year and she was still hoping that everything would improve. Was she hoping against hope? She had no idea! All she knew was that every time she heard him say sorry she would forget all the hurts and go back to his arms.

Her relationship had started as a game. A game of cards with four kings and four queens. Every time he had resulted as her king and her heart wanted to believe that he really was her king. Flirting resulted in innocent kisses and kisses resulted in an affair. He was the best guy she had ever known. Always listening to her, protecting her, loving her? Oh ya!! He was the perfect guy!!!

The trouble started in the first month of their togetherness. Their first fight and his first accusation. He had not said sorry, and she had accepted his bitter words, hoping that it would end that day. But it did not end. It continued for months and months. She thought she was madly in love with him. He was just not good at words, and that was certainly not a reason to abandon him. After all he would not let go of her.
They had been together for 5 months now. She had gone for a visit to his place and his computer was on. She wanted to check her mail so she went to the computer and noticed that he was still signed in. His mail was still open and she noted that the mail id was different. Temptation is an amazing thing. The strongest people cannot control themselves against it so how could she? She opened his mails and she saw a name she had never seen or heard. They were love mails? mails that included them and she was no where in it.

Slowly she remembered the name. It was his friend- atleast he said that she was his friend. And he had blamed her once for doubting them.. and now this!! Does a dagger on the heart hurt more or the emotional hurt caused by a loved one? No one could probably answer this.. but at that time it felt like she was feeling the worse pain one could ever feel. She ran back home.. all the world turned from a beautiful bright heaven to a dark and gloomy hell. How could one lie straight on the face and not even move a muscle???

He found out. He came to her as soon as he could. Gave explanations? said that he wasn?t really into the girl and that he was only responding to her to keep her heart. He was her ex that he had never got rid of.. For five months,, and she hadn?t known a word of it. That morning she remembers the day and the pain is again fresh. Her heart bleeds but she had forgiven him. He was only human and he had told the girl that he loved only her. She thought he would change.. she loved him but TRUST? NO!!! She would never trust him.

Though she had believed will her full heart that he would change? it never happened? He became even more brutal and inflicted more pain in her heart. He even started calling her wh*** and other names whenever they quarreled. One day she decided that she had enough she couldn?t take it anymore. A relationship without trust and understanding could not work. She told him and her worse nightmare followed.

He could not and would not listen. He was stubborn and according to him he could never find a guy better than him. But she had made up her mind. She started to walk away from him?. When she noticed that there was a hand on her waist? pulling her, grabbing her.. throwing her.. He threw her like a baby throws a rag doll in a temper tantrum. She thought he had gone crazy when he stroke her.. and she felt like her leg broke. He was in front of her with a knife in his hand. Threatening her?. If she tried to go away she would be dead. There was a cold fear inside her. Every part of her life flashing in front..

?Oh mom I am so sorry? I love you please forgive me for not listening to you at times. Please don?t be too hurt when you know that I am dead.? Her mom was all she could think of.. and then he was gone?he was not in front of her and she was not dead. Now she remembers that time and her heart goes cold.. How dreadful death was. But he hadn?t stabbed her. He had stabbed the sofa beside her again and again? but her.. no.he hadn?t done that.

That was the time when she should have let go of him.. Every girl in her right senses would. But she saw him weeping.. Though it was hard for her to walk.. she crawled to him? told him she would not let go. He said he would change. But she had made a decision. She could not stay near him? So they were separated.

He never stopped doubting her.. never stopped? so last night she had made up her mind. She had let go of him and today her whole life flashed in front of her. He was all she had thought about. Her heart cried and it felt like someone was squeezing it but she had done it. Told him that they could not been together. He had been furious.. called her names.. said he was sorry.. tried everything. This time it would not work. It would not work with anyone. She could never again trust a guy.. NEVER!!

This was when HE came to her life. All this time when she had been wishing for a miracle it did not happen. And now when she was shattered and broken HE was finally there. She had needed a friend to soothe her hurt and HE had come as an answer. Listening to her, talking to her.. making her feel special and wanted. But HE WAS a guy and she didn?t know if HE would be the same. She had trusted, she had loved and she had failed. She had tried to fly but her wings had been broken on the voyage and now HE was here telling her to fly again..

Could she ever fly? He bandaged her wounds and held her hand, but the scar still showed and hurt. Every now and then when she looked at HIM she saw a part of the man who had shattered her.. The man who had turned her smile to a frown. The guy who had given her thorns when she had asked for a simple flower? Could she trust again? Maybe she could later.. maybe she could never.. she did not know.

Was it fate that when the god did smile at her, she did not want to be smiled at? She could see HIS smile, HIS kindness, HIS affection.. but hadn?t she seen it before somewhere.. and hadn?t her soothing breeze turned into a tornado? Hadn?t the sparks turned to a self consuming fire? She wanted to dream again.. to feel again.. to be special again, but could she?

Today she sits and thinks.. Her heart wants her to forget everything. It wants her to love.. to live.. to take joy in the happiness HE wants to give her. But the mind says ?no?. The battle of the heart and mind goes on and she is afraid to let her heart win. Heart always brings one pain, and she can?t bear the pain again. All she fears now is that in the battle of her heart and mind she will lose HIM. HE who might be the answer to her prayers or the cause of her doom.

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One day she decided that she had enough she couldn?t take it anymore. A relationship without trust and understanding could not work. She told him and her worse nightmare followed. He could not and would not listen. He was stubborn and according to him he could never find a guy better than him. But she had made up her mind. She started to walk away from him?. When she noticed that there was a hand on her waist? pulling her, grabbing her.. throwing her.. He threw her like a baby throws a rag doll in a temper tantrum. She thought he had gone crazy when he stroke her.. and she felt like her leg broke. He was in front of her with a knife in his hand. Threatening her?. If she tried to go away she would be dead. There was a cold fear inside her. Every part of her life flashing in front..That was the time when she should have let go of him.. Every girl in her right senses would. But she saw him weeping.. Though it was hard for her to walk.. she crawled to him? told him she would not let go. He said he would change.
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I dont know if this is a reality or just a story.....but such things really happens...and women mostly fall into it....i think in a way its also appealing to them. Guys who do such stuffs are pretty good in manipulating and are usally excellent in certain stuffs...and are capable to make their lady feel so very special that sometimes for women its hard to find escape....even if they do...they always get dragged. hmmmm scary.

Good job, I really felt sorry for her. Dunno if it was real or just a story, what ever I really felt sorry for her, and a small suggestion for her don't generalize everyone in the same frame. There are people who r truthful and honest and generalization hurts them. Its just awesome story. Good going, keep the spirit high.