12/12/04

Dead, I was!

Flying, speeding, careening through space.
My car, competing with the speed of earth!
Ask me,
About centripetal force,
it contained my bubble of oxygen.
Ask me,
About centrifugal force,
It gave me momentum.
When bungee jumping has no anchor,
Free falling means a glimpse of the black hole.

Can the speed of thought be measured?
Not by the speed of light nor by the depths of space.
Seatbelt not gravity anchored my fetal form.
Suspended in midair,
Upside down, an astronaut in his final moments on earth.
Release me from this paralysis,
Like a Volvo ad, allow me to step out with a volvo grin on my face.
Boy, what a demo; the dummy survived!
Not me!
A writer?s coma writ white on a blank page.
My silver nail polish glitters on lifeless fingers.
Strange, how the morning light shines a pale yellow light.
I?m not blinded, t?is the color of my eyelids,
Translucent, warm sunlight filtered through a maze of capillaries.

Pulsating in split seconds,
each fraction the length of eternity.
Eternity devoid of time, how long?
Breath, a snuff of life, how fragile!
Spirit, watching in fascination?
Oh how beautiful is the shattering of glass in slow motion!
Like the spray of ocean stinging in sugary texture.
My soul whispers ? Oh powers of the universe, protect me!?
That spit of enlightenment: Let me die for I see no blood,
Just my glittering nail polish; Strange how it matches perfectly
The glittering shards gleaming in the morning sun,
my source of life, my source of light.
Like the palate of dried paints; swirled in abandon,
Leashing my emotions and coloring my seconds.
If I could, I?d paint time, space and death in all their glory
Using the prisms of my fragmented windshield
fracture the rays into brilliant smithereens,
life?s last attempt to capture the ticking seconds
Strange, how beauty exists even in death.


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I wish everyone a safe holiday season. May the powers of the universe protect you!

Sitara,

I am hopeless when it comes to understanding poems.
So I can't really comment on this poem.

But I saw this, and just wanted to CONGRATULATE you on your admission to such a prestigious writing program.

I wish you all the best; and may we hear more and more from you (poems, stories, memoirs, essays and so on) in coming years.

It's always great to see fellow Sajha people doing well and better.
Congratulations!!

oohi
ashu

Ashu, this is the context to the poem:
Last week: My car was hit by an SUV driven by a 16 year old; it flipped over 3 times until it landed on the roof with the wheels spinning. I was pulled out through the window!

I walked out of the carcrash... alive, unhurt, unbroken and with my sense of humor intact! Although, I really thought I was dead. Anyways, when the police asked what kind of an errand I was doing at 8 AM in the morning on a Sunday, I answered in all sincerity: "I was going to Yoga class.... HELLO!!!!!!! to keep healthy you know!" Even the police and the ambulance crew laughed.

Anyways: I am grateful and happy for receiving so much from friends, family and the UNIVERSE

OK, your explanation puts things in perspective. Else, I was feeling stupid for not being able to put "glittering shards gleaming in the morning sun" in any context.

Then again, it feels great to see fellow Sajha people doing well and better and SURVIVING such a crash with their sense of humor intact.

oohi
ashu

Sitara Hazur;
How you?
Good to hear that you survived a crash unhurt!! uta bhayeko bhaye suntala liyera bhetna aauthe hola. :D

Hi Sitara...!!!

Sorry to hear about the incident: Feel Well...
Nice Penmanship, once again...

My Love and Blessings to you-Always...!!!

Pheri Vaytaula...

Sitara, wonderfully written poem and glad that u survived, otherwise their wud have been no virtual female that i cud have fun with :)

they say, when we think we are breathing our last breath, our consciousness captures all the things that we cud have done while we were living. i bet u had the same experience too, so HURRY! PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL ME!!! :)

Uutaa pani parirahekoo thiyooo
Yetaa Gham lagiraheko thiyoo
Mailee jutaa lagayeko thiyee
Uslee chapal lagayekoo thiyoo
Rukh ko paat haru hawa sangai laharaudaii
Sunsan sadaak ma eaklai bhautaridaai
Kahilee yetaa kahilee utaa
Gham Pani sanga ladibudii kheldaii
Hamii hidirahayou, Hami hidirahayou.

Hahahaha dharoo dhamaa Sitara ko Poem bujheta maile Marijau.
-nivaN

Sitara,
Nice to c u bak and healthy..
thanks for that god who saved ya..
and thank u 4 the poem.

Sitara ji koti koti namaskar......hajur ko swasta mangal maye dekh dha maan prafuliti bhayo...hajur le thulo dasa taar nu bhayo.......sayed tapai lai ulka nai laageko thiyo hola. Ishwar le je garchan ramro ko lagi garchan.....anyways......good to see you alive and back. Thanks to god for showing how death can be so atleast u can be down to earth...and better human than being snob. When i had a accident it changed my life...took away my ego and pride. Hope! same for you

peace out

jai shiva

Life is purposedly filled with all these co-incidences.
Sitaraji, wishing you speedy physical, emotional recovery (if any), well nicely penned close encounter naration. Reminds of the saying "Moreko Bholi Dui Din". You were purposely spared to fullfill your assignments and this turning point was just to make you aware that you are valuable, and life is but just a bubble it is only a matter of time only for every bubble to brust.
Happy and yes as you mentioned safe festive season aheads to everyone.

SITARA jee,
Sorry to hear about the ordeal you went through.I have been to a couple of accidents myself.Even though they could be, they hadn't been major ones.I think it's the second chance (life) you got to do many more good things in the future.
Worst accidents, which we survive, bring one strange and weird type of happiness.We feel lucky to be alive.We get a chance to realize that so much worst could have happened.
Feel better and stronger than ever.
Cheers !
DP

Goodness, Sitara!

You can't imagine how much I thank the heavenly spirits for your well being despite of the horrific accident.

You're my Sajha didi; it would have been horrible if something had happened to you.

doctor bee

(P.S. Your sense of humor is remarkable)

Sitara dd,
For sum strange reason when I saw the topic of this thread, I did think sumone has had an accident! Me with my bad thoughts :(:(

Am really sorry to hear abt it, but very much delighted to see you safe and sound with your wonderful abilities still intact ! We all have sum near death experiences at sum point in our life, and after that even the sun shining makes us realize, just how lucky we are to feel its warmth.

On a brighter note, now you knw how brave all those stuntpeople have to be ! Tehehe ! :p
Happy Holidays and may the force be with you ! :p


*Warm hugs*


P.S. Kalanki ra Confused lai Horlicks liyera jana pardai na? Kasto manchey haru hola ! :p

Sorry to hear about the accident Sitaraji, but at the same time glad to hear that you escaped unscratched.

"am grateful and happy for receiving so much from friends, family and the UNIVERSE "- Sitara knows aliens too? Or Guardian Angel/diety from somewhere up there making phone calls, sending emails/sms? :-).

Sitara, it must have been a traumatic experience. I guess it was a bad luck followed by good luck, tyahi ta bhannu paryo. But all is wel that ends well.

The poem was 'electric' if u like.

cheers

... and a certain Godson never listens to his Guardian Angel.Come WEDNESDAY, halat jhan kharab.

Thank you friends for your good wishes; appreciate your stopping by to read and type down some comments.

TMA, the Universe contains us no? At least, that's what I believe. :)

Isolated Freak: Yep, the aliens saved me! :)))

Confused, that was the first thing that crossed my mind... calling you up from the spirit world! :p

Ashu: Thanks about the writing program (you know who planted that seed! :); it would be ironic if I suddenly hit a writer's block!

G-I what a Ko-inkidink; we both posted at the same time! :)